So I am sitting here thinking...Who is this person? I am not a leader, I am not a follower, I am quiet and keep to myself. I am the student who sits in the back of the room and says nothing, not really a trouble maker, but doesn't do any work. I have a difficult time making and keeping friends. I am not considered smart or creative. I keep my opinions to myself. I don't like to make waves, and I cry when I am mad, upset, or nervous.
Yet, here I am... a teacher, a team leader for two teams, I have my dinner buddies at work that I love to follow, I say what I want, when I want and I don't care what people think. I have made many lasting friendships in the last few years. I find myself sticking up for what I think is right and not backing down as I would have in the past. I find myself being able to talk to people about serious matters without crying. How did I change so much? When did I change? I like the new improved me! I can't wait to lose all this access baggage and see what other surprises I have for myself:)
Today went well! I was not as hungry...I tried jello because I was out of broth...couldn't do it! It is nasty...Getting less nervous and more excited about surgery day! I know I can do this:) Thanks for all your kind words, warm thoughts, the hugs, gifts, and just being here for me. I know it isn't a terminal illness, but in some ways it feels like it is to me and I am fighting for my life! Thanks to EVERY ONE!!!!
If you leave an anonymous comment, can you put your name there so I know who you are:)
ReplyDeleteI certainly consider you smart and creative!
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You r so great Linda! I absolutely love reading your blog! You really are an interesting person!
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you are doing awesome keep up the good work and remember that the end result is going to be so worth it. Have you ever thought of writing a book just reading your blog makes me think you would write an awesome book that might be another stress reliever for you when i get mad or upset i clean or go for a walk. I also do cross stitch
ReplyDeleteKeep up the good work Linda.
gail
You have always been a 2nd mom to me - you remind me so much of my own mom - I have respected you and though of you that way since the beginning even if you didn't know it. You may not think of yourself as a leader but I know you have affected my life and i always looked to you for advice.
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