Day three...well it has all hit me today. I am sore, tired, and weak. Although I am still in a good mood. I am unable to wear clothes yet because they hurt around my waste, so pajamas it is. The real question is, did I loose weight? I do not know and I am not going to step on the scale until Saturday! Today will be a long day! Fred is at work and he teaches his other class at CLC tonight.
I don't know why I always have to play the strong person...when all I want is someone to take care of me. Today was the first day of any tears. I know it will not do any good to feel sorry for myself, but it is what I need to do right now.
This may sound selfish, but I really want it to be all about me right now...and all Fred is interested is in his students and his class! I just want to be held...and told that everything will be alright. That I did the right thing and I am not a vain idiot...
LINDA!!! You are awesome!!! I look in your class every day to see if you are back yet! Wishful thinking! Everyone cant wait for your return! Hang in there! You did this for a GREAT reason!
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I agree with Alexa!! We can't wait until you get back!!!
ReplyDeleteLinda it is about you and there is nothing wrong with feeling that way at this point. You did it for you and for your family so that you will be here for them. I do not think you are being selfish I think you are being a normal person after any kind of surgery. And it's ok to cry we all need to have a good cry for whatever reason once in awhile. You did a wonderful thing for yourself and your family keep the end result in result in your minds eye I am not saying that is the answer but it may help a little. You are in my thoughts. I will get better day by day. Baby steps.
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didn't know you were that upset, we would have stayed longer but you seemed fine...love you!!! crying is good:) and maybe you should tell dad how you feel...since he doesnt read this blog very often...you never know, it might help.
ReplyDeleteLove you mom!!! see you on sunday for sure, maybe sooner:)
Hang in there babe, everything will be fine. I agree wth Sara though, tell Fred how you feel, don't keep it locked inside you. Theone thing I have discovered with all the shit I have been through lately is, nobody can read your mind, if you want them to know how you feel, you need to tell them. Also it is not healthy to keep all of your emotions inside you. It is a tough lesson to learn but honesty is the best thing and I think Fred loves you enough to help you through this tough time and be there for you when you need him most.
ReplyDeleteYou DID do the right thing, and you are NOT a vain idiot. Am sure Fred was just doing what he HAD to do, and he'd really rather be with you. He did suggest this himself, just confirming what you already had been thinking, so he's 100% on your team. It's ok to feel how you feel. I was home sick w/flu this week, and I wanted people to be checking on me and bringing me stuff. Eventually they did, just not as soon as I would have liked. They had to get their other stuff done first. We GET TO BE SELFISH sometimes!!! Love you! Lee Ann
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