OMG

I had an appointment today with the surgeon.  It was a group appointment and I met with all the people that will be getting the surgery on the same day as me and the surgeon...it was enlightening...to say the least.

First of all, I realize that I am not the only person going through this and that we all have the same fears.  We all are dreading the 10 day diet the most and the doctor agreed this will be the worst part of the surgery.  I guess what we decided was that if we can do the diet we can do anything.  The reason for the difficulty is that you are giving up the one thing in the world you could always count on to comfort you in need, make you smile when you were down and just make you feel good...I love food.  Before surgery I will still feel the hunger and pain.  After surgery I won't be able to eat, but I won't care, I won't feel hungry. 

So what is this 10 day diet you ask?  It consists of 4 nutrition drinks a day, clear soup, some fruits and veggies, sugar free jello and popsicles.  No sugar or fat for the next 10 days...the reason you ask?  To shrink the liver which covers the stomach.  If the liver is smaller and weighs less it is easier to move to do the surgery and less risk of complications.  The other reason is to give your body a new start.  I will be going through a process that is similar to babies, just liquids, then full liquids, then soft food, then pureed food, then finally real food.  You have to relearn to chew properly and the amount that you can actually consume.  Who new it was so complicated? 

The second thing I realized in the meeting is that I need this more then I realized.  With 125 pounds to lose I cannot do this on my own and keep it off forever, it is too frustrating.  However, I know I can do this with the surgery. It will still take me two years to reach my goal, but I know that I will reach my goal.  I cannot fall off the wagon, because I will not be able to physically! I want to live for many more years and my only hope is to lose the weight and become healthy and with this surgery, I will in fact lose the weight and I will be forced to become healthy.

I am looking forward to this new and improved me! 

So the vitamins are still not being taken...on the recommendation of the doctor I bought a pill box to put them in so I make sure I take them once a day with my other medications.  I think this might work...now I need to get my water in daily.  Did you know that dehydration can make you feel hungry and that by drinking a cup of water will usually make the hunger pangs go away...interesting...I probably am more dehydrated then hungry:)  Who knew?