Happy Valentine's Day to all my friends. This is one Valentine's Day I will never forget:) No candy, no wine, no drinks in the hot tub, and no dinner out, and yet it was the best Valentine's Day ever! It was a reminder to me that I do not need any of those things to feel loved. I feel loved by the words, actions, and thoughts of those that love me. Not just one day a year, but everyday!
Well here it is just a little over 12 hours until surgery. How do I feel? It is hard to say, one part of me wants to turn and run. However, the smarter side of me is really excited and can't wait. I can't believe it is finally here. So many mixed feelings. Anger at myself for letting it get this bad, sadness because I will miss eating, happiness because I can't wait to be healthy again, thoughtful because I need to think about my new life and what it will look like. Fear of the unknown. Love for all my supporters for helping me make it this far. Terror at something going wrong. It isn't like I am having my tonsils out, I am changing my body and my life. Scary!
So tomorrow I will begin my post surgery posts...
PS Got my CPAP machine today, maybe I will have a good nights rest tonight:)
Will be thinking and praying for you tomorrow!
ReplyDeleteLove you Linda...let us know if you need anything!!!
ReplyDeleteWill be thinking of you and sending you hugs and prayers. You are a very strong, and brave woman. Believe and trust in the decisions you have made. Keep your goals and dreams for this whole process in your heart and everything will be fine. Sending hugs!
ReplyDeleteThanks Everyone! Your wishes and prayers mean a lot to me!
ReplyDeleteThinking of you today and sending all my good thoughts and feelings. Be strong! We are here supporting you! Hugs!
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