This Journey

I have realized that this is not just a journey in my health, it is in family, friends, teaching, learning, and sooooo many things! I apologize to all of you that I have been short with lately. I think that it is harder to give up food than it was to give up cigarettes! It has affected me in more ways than any of the nurses, psychologist, doctors, and nutritionists had warned me. I think about it ALL the time. When you are talking to me about a TV show, I am thinking about what I can have for a snack, or that I really want a pizza. My mind is only on food!!!! I have even been dreaming about food, which I have never done this before. I have also realized how important it is to have a family that loves you and friends that are there for you through thick and thin...and listen to obsessions with food constantly. I can't thank you enough for putting up with my ups and downs, highs and lows, and my neurotic moods!!!

I still HATE (yes a very strong word, with a very strong feeling behind it!) one person I work with and I will NOT be nice to them!!! Sorry, but I have to draw the line somewhere...

My goal this week is to try to focus on my moods and to be more positive and less neurotic. I am also looking for a new position as a reading specialist. I am going to focus on trying to get this job. It is what I really want! Although I would really miss my Palombi family. I probably don't have a chance at this job because they want someone with a secondary ed degree which I don't have, but it is for a reading specialist which is for K-12th grade...we will see how it goes.

So, some times it is hard to put things in perspective when losing weight. However, this morning I was thinking and this is what I came up with. I have gone from a size 24 to a size 18/20 in three months! That is pretty darn significant! The capris I put on yesterday from last year would not stay up on by butt and the shirt I wore was bought to wear in Yellowstone last year, but it was too small then! It was too big yesterday! My favorite jeans do not need to be unzipped to put on or take off...and I could barely button them three months ago...I feel so good. I have gone down a half a shoe size too!!!!! I won't mention my breast size...but it is shrinking too...LOL I can't help but be excited. To heck with that scale! I know that I have a long way to go, but I am well on my way to a healthy, happy new me!

My goal for this week is to fit in more veggies and fruits and walk daily!