Not Since I can remember!

The weigh in! I have officially lost 45 pounds! 240!!!!! I was 246 in August of 2003, that is the lowest weight I remember being. I know when I went to Honduras in 1990 I was in Jenny Craig and 199. Then I just kept going up and up and up! This is the first time I am going down, down down!

Dr. Heydari is the most amazing doctor! He knows just what to say to make you feel like a 100 bucks! I was upset when I walked in about the lack of progress and he set me straight. He said that 12 pounds in one month is amazing. He hoped for 10 pounds. He said that the lapband is a slower process and that 8 pounds a month is an average weight loss, so I am doing really well...which makes me feel better. I know that I can do that and more with the nice weather coming.

So to celebrate me I went and bought some new clothes...again! I used to hate shopping, but now I love it!!! I love the pants I bought and they fit perfect! One more size down a and I can shop the Juniors section again...I can't wait!!!!

Yes, the fill hurt, but it is well worth it. I had about 1/4 of an egg white flat bread from DD and I am still full. I am so glad that I have learned to eat healthy and yet I can still eat out and feel like I am not really on a diet. I am getting closer to the day that I can wake up and it is just a normal life. It is hard with Fred around though, he still likes his beer and food and I always want to keep up with him, but I am learning that I cannot even come close to keeping up with him! It is a man thing:)

Goal for the week...make people smile, thank everyone personally for putting up with my moods and supporting me, apologize to my teammate I was mean too...not the one I hate! I wasn't sure if my moods were done, or if it was just a lull, so I didn't want to apologize and then do it again. I am pretty sure that I am back to myself and the worst is over. I need to apologize now and then pray I don't lash out again!