I really can't believe I am doing this! I have been preparing and I am ready, but it is crazy telling people...at first a few, then my blog, now people at work. It is amazing how much more it seems like reality when you start talking about something.
I love to see peoples reactions...some are surprised, some are concerned and yet others are just confused. I just know that every time I tell someone I am being judged. I obviously know that I am "Morbidly Obese" other wise I wouldn't be doing this. I love when some one says, "Do you really need to lose that much weight?" I am not sure if they are being nice or they just don't see me clearly. When I started this process I was 130 pounds over weight...yes I think I qualify for the surgery. I don't even want to get down to my normal weight for my height. I just want to be healthy again!
You get to a point where you just want to change and can't do it on your own. You don't want people to laugh at you all the time, or when you go out to eat, they look at you with disgust. I look at me with disgust! I think almost everyone has been on a diet...could you imagine being on a diet and starving for three years...that is how long it would take me to lose this amount of weight. I just don't have that will power! With this surgery I will not feel hungry, I will still have cravings, but I can satisfy those cravings in a few bites...instead of the entire bag or box.
I can't wait to start blogging about my experience with surgery and weight loss...
This next few days my goal is to drink one protein shake a day and start taking my vitamins daily...I hate vitamins:(
Linda,
ReplyDeleteThis is Betty I am so amazed at your strength. I am sure this has not been an easy decision and know we are praying for you. What a huge step to share your journey with others. Know we are with you and support you! You are an amazing person.
It will be tough but you can do anything you set your mind to I know you better than anyone.
ReplyDeleteLove ya