It has really been difficult the last two months! Nerves, stress, depression, happiness, love, hate, enthusiasm, I have felt all these feelings...sometimes I am happy one minute and then go straight to depression or I feel hate and go straight to love. It has been a rocky mountain road...sometimes up and sometimes down! Today it is only 12:48 pm and I have felt all of these feelings since I got out of bed at 8:00 a.m. Talk about going up and down the mountains at a racing speed! I have such a headache right now it is amazing I can even focus on this blog.
When I woke up and weighed myself, I was upset! I have only lost 2.5 pounds since my last doctors appointment. I was really hoping for more. I know I have lost 22 pounds since I started my 10 day diet and 30 since my very first weigh in. I was just wanting more. It seems like all I do is think about food, reading labels, making sure I am getting enough protein, staying away from fat and sugar. I am eating about a cup of food per meal and I only lost 2.5 pounds. How terrible to starve yourself to be thin...I said I would never do this!
So I reach out to my facebook friends because I am depressed...and yes, they came through and reminded me that it is a JOURNEY, a life change, not just a month of starving and then back to the old me. If this was the ould me, I would have ate a ton of food this morning and gained back the 2.5 pounds back. I am not going back to that girl! Thanks friends! You know who you are:)
Then I get to the doctors office and they were amazed at my weight loss so far. The nutritionist says I am doing everything right. The nurse was amazed at my blood pressure and the "glow" I had. This made me feel better. Then Dr. Heydari tells me that all the weight I have lost up until now is a plus. The band was put in and bity was only restricted by the surgery for about two weeks. The weight I have lost was all on my own and not because of the surgery (well I wouldn't have gone a 10 day liquid diet if I didn't have to!). Now look at me, I am 30 pounds lighter, I am down two sizes in clothes, I have more energy, my blood pressure is lower than it has been in years! I have put myself first and it has paid off! Now the band will kick in and start its thing and I will do even better...
My first fill hurt like hell! Seriously, it hurt! I have been poked with many needles in my life, but that hurt. I could hear and feel the saline enter the band...what a weird feeling. Now, I am restricted to a liquid diet for 24 hours then eat as tolerated. I am hoping it feels like it did right after surgery when a 1/4 cup of pudding filled me up for hours...no more hunger. 3 meals a day and 2 snacks, and a protein drink daily and I will not be hungry all the time. I am so excited for the next mountain I have to climb! Oh, and I can start exercising too! I hate exercising, but I need to get in the habit:) Any hints on how to fit exercise into a lazy persons life?
The journey continues and I hope that one day I wake up and eat all my meals and snacks and not think about it as a diet, but as my life!
Do laps around the school :) you can come visit my room then dana's!
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That is a great idea! I need to get a pedometer and start measuring my steps and make sure I get enough in during the day. See you tomorrow during 1st period...maybe two times;)
ReplyDeleteOne of the company's I interviewed with durring my long job search was a company that used pedometers to lower helth care costs for employees and companies. The basic Idea is to put 1000 steps on the pedometer every day. Wheither you do this just by waling arround at work while teaching or even park a few spaces furthar from the door. Useing a pedometer all day might be what would work best for you at first. Set a goal of 1000 steps a day at first and maybe add 100-500 more every month untill you are jogging/running. I'm sure this would be a great way to start, because you might be close to that number already just from your normal day, might just need a tiny bit more.
ReplyDeleteThanks Chris! That is great advise and that is my plan. I also need to do some strengthening to help the skin go back to its normal shape. I can't afford plastic surgery:) Love you and thanks for posting! I hope to someday be jogging or running.
ReplyDeleteWhe I first started my weght loss journey, i started on a tread mill walking 1 mile until i could walk that mile in 15 minutes, which is whats needed to lose weight, after I could do that, I added another mile, and the goal was to finish in 30 minutes, and thn I added another mile, goal 45 minuts. The it was sprig so i moved it outside, drove around measuring distance until I knew a 3 mile coursead a 4 mile course. Some days I would walk the 3 miles, then other days the 4 miles, and some days i would walk the 3 mile course twice, alays sooing for the 15 minute mile. The idea s to start slow and gradualy build up, as you lose weight and build muscle, the easier it gets to do it and it actually comes enjoyable. I need to strt again myself and tis time I need to keep doing it, even if I am not tring to lseweight aain.
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